real deal
here it is.
i couldn’t exactly decide
what to do with my life.
i figured i would apply
to certain areas. masters, law school, med school.
in the end i had a conversation
with a recent millionaire
and he said there isn’t any reason
i couldn’t have it all.
he knew doctors who were lawyers.
i didn’t want to look back regretting not going
to this or that. i was waiting for God to send me
some sort of signal - i got accepted to both law and med
and i waited, until i realized
if i have the brain - why waste it.
if i have the support - why not take advantage of it.
if i have the time - why not do everything i can with it.
and if i have the guts - just do it.
in the end i’ll have the degree or degree(s).
i can’t stop this self need for self-actualization anyway.
the valedictorian of a particular med school said during her speech,
i didn’t know i even wanted to be a doctor,
i didn’t know if i wanted to go to med school,
but i liked school and i was good at it.
that’s all it takes in the end, the liking.
it goes even deeper than people think.
faith, as long as i’m learning and getting enlightened.
beautiful release on the plane ride
i.
topsy turvy
fate obscured
by lonely heartache’s
forbidden cure
awaiting life’s meteor shower
of impacting forces
i have yet to devourii.
love of knowledge
passion for truths
beauty in nature
opening routes.
pathways winding
forks ahead
i can’t stop now
i’ve yet to be fed
my hungry soul
is thirsty for more.
i don’t know how
to even the score
it’s going to be a
life long journey.
Surreal
i’m trying to figure out this vague little area in my life. i’m just waiting until one day it reaches me and then i won’t have to keep looking. sometimes all this wealth and debauchery really gets to me. sometimes i think i’m one of those women like path and sexton. but at least they’re immortal. is that what i’m trying to say?
